I want a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. The boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you to the world, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. The one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares abt you and how lucky he is to have you.

Is there such a guy out there? If there is, introduce him to me.

shall b/date to Nov again. Cos i forget to talk abt Fish Leong mini concert which i attended with my youngest sis. Well, sis wont tixs to e mini concert by sending in e application form from e latest Fish Leong album which i had bought in order to get e Free Sony Ericsson bluetooth headset when i got e Sony Ericsson K618i... can get what i am trying to say? i think can lah, cos i can understand. Well it was held at max pavillion. Her Live performance was simply great as she had powerful vocal. I actually wanted to catch SHE concert in january, but i guess i'll give it a miss n save up for FIsh Leong concert instead.. really enjoy her performance n e way she communicate with us. She is very sweet too n always smiling.. Emily got e chance to get upclose with her as she let her signed e album which we oni had 1 copy, so i let emily go up while i took pics for her. so wei da of me right?

ok, then shall get back to dec liao. trying to rem what i had missed..

We had a coy happy hr e other day. hmm... well, ask us to be back by 1445, but e event started oni at 1645, well cant blame anyone cos our project was held up by work. had lunch with evon b4 we went back to camp. it has been a long long time since we met up for lunch n chit chat, therefore we talked alot... n luckily we both had a full full lunch, she had malay food while i had indian food, cos e dinner in camp started at abt 5plus. BBQ n self wrapped popiah.. haha.. first time i did not go n BBQ myself.. just crowd ard n eat eat eat n eat somemore.. after that made some popiah.. found out that i had talent in making popiah sia.. haha.. cos except e first one, e rest are all well made lor.. so happy.. lol after that just laze ard... haha.. pple offer me drink but i rejected.. cos i did not want to let history repeat itself.. tat is to stay in after happy hr in bunk... but there are a few pple who cant escape.. like OC n 2IC, they were being toasted front to back, left to right, up n down.. so funny lor.. guess happy hr is e oni time we can sabo them.. wahahahha.... oh ya, i am quite lucky too.. cos i got e 6th price for e lucky draw... nth great.. just a set of kappa waterbottle.. lol...

oh ya.. was on cse on 4 n 5 dec held in signal institude.. then saw my bmt batchmate kim there.. haha.. she really din change n it was nice seeing her.. she is an instructer there leh... where got like me.. stil doing e same old thing over n over again.. haiz... but bo bian.. she is very garang.. just like wat weilong always said.. she is good ah!! haha, during e 2 day cse talk alot with tony... nope, not e xiaobai tat tony, is another tony.. haha both of them had e same christain name n surname.. but nope, e one i am talking abt is not xiaobai...

hmmm.. also brought my cousin to watch happy feet too... 2nd time watching.. but i dun mind.. cos it's a great show.. haha.. n i'm going to tell e whole wide world wat am honest child i am.. cos i went to eng wah n get 2 e-vouchers movie tickets.. each cost 50dollars.. so 2 means 100dollars.. haha.. e gong gong cashier did everything liao then told me can liao... i was so shocked, cos i hvn pay sia.. then being a honest child like me, i told her she hvn charge me yet.. then she was like.. so surprised n tks me for my honesty lor.. wahaha... so happy.. guess my cousins enjoy e show too cos they were discussing e show when we went for supper.. feel happy too cos my cousins enjoyed themselves...

also went to casueway with popo to buy birthday present for both jason n samuel.. their birthday differs by 3 days... well got a nike man u tee for samuel... cos during my 55 cse, my uncle, who's samuel dad kept cook nice stuff for me to eat, feed me until white white fat fat... then dun charge me.. abit paisae.. so decided to get something for him.. popo n myself share e gift for samuel which includes a kappa waterbottle set.. it was similar to e one i got for e lucky draw, but his was much more bigger than mine.. haha i noe he gonna like it.. cse during my 55 cse, he kept telling me how much he loves man U, n tat time when Rooney finally scored after a long long time of being goaless, he was like mad lor... so i noe by getting him e nike man u tee, he will be very happy lor... haha i am happy too... kekek...

i've talk abt all e happy things already... e rest are all not worth mentioning...

i've been hurt by someone who is so close to me... i've nv knew that to that particular someone, i am such a "lan" ren... it really hurt me... it's not e first time... i guess one or 2 times more, i'll be immune to it..

am i really such a self centered person? seriously i dunno... maybe those who know me well n long enough can tell me... if someone whom i am not close to said those things abt me, i dun give a damn neither would i get hurt, but why must it be u? i am truely disappointed... if i am really such a self centered person, what e hell am i doing so much for my family? i can just bloody hell dun bother abt everything n just had a lavish lifestyle which i can definately afford to if i dun hv to bother abt my family... but wat e hell am i taking almost half of my pay each mth to help out in e family... becos i am self center? if wat i've been doing is still not ehaf, or all tat i've been doing means so little to anyone of you... then just leave me alone n get out of my life... i'll rather be left alone...

pardon for my outburst in e above para...

This is suppose to be a mth of joy... but so far.. i dun feel much of it... except when i got my pay.. but still i dun enjoy any bit of it... so many things happen.. really dunno what e future holds...

Just got e news yesterday that my colleague father had passed away. My colleague is oni 26, i dunno wat to say, but i just hope tat he will tk gd care of himself n his mum. Life is really so unpredictable.. quite a nr of pple died in their slp.. sometimes i will wonder if will it happen to me? seriously i'm scare... but i cannot do anything.. when e time is up, it;s up. there;s nth we can do...

This had been a long entry... shall cont another day... cos i dun wan to go on, else i dun think i can slp if i carry on... cos there's so much on my mind... nose blocked.. think i am falling sick again.. all tks to someone... tkcare pple.. nitez...